Sunday blues
Went to church again yesterday. Valerie wasn't there, but Heather was and greeted me cheerfully. After the service tho, everyone just up and leaves really soon after! I started to talk to one lady, but I had to initiate it, and noone does stuff after the service, so I just went on home. Felt really bizzare, just to be sitting at home on a Sunday. Got lots done, tho. Went to church again in the evening, and this time Heather wasn't even there, so I sat by myself, and afterwards, I slowly got up and meandered to the door, but there no one came to talk to me, and I didn't feel like throwing myself into a circle. So I left. I felt like crying as I walked home. Made me miss home and friends so much. Went home feeling blue and lonely.
Got a message that teachers were going out with the Nova Japanese staff for tea, and did I want to come. I was so excited! I said yes, of course, and went out for a lovely tea and pleasant conversation with intelligent people. Afterwards, we moved on to a bar called Grammaphone. I had such a great evening! Pleasant people, intelligent conversation. Went home feeling accepted and inspired to do stuff with my life (and admittedly somewhat inebriated).
What's the deal with that???
posted by Vi @ 5/30/2005 12:54:00 pm
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PS. Just got a call from Valerie from church, inviting me over to make brownies! Yay!
sori-bori! bel hevi tru! what is the deal with that?!? yay for valerie and yay for brownies! vi, i miss you! xxoo
uh... anonymous is me, ruthie. i'm on the ipaq and for some reason this cut down version of your blog doesn't let me put my name on a comment...
BIG hug from Adam :)
That's real sad. Sad for you. Sad that you can feel like that when the church is suppose to be the ones known for loving. But it's so good to hear Valarie called you. I'm glad for that. Good on her. God's taking care of ya. I'm glad you can feel happy from being with the other Nova people. Hope your brownie adventure is a real treat. Luv ya. Would give you a hug for real if I could. Ü
Grrr, mean nasty church people. I'm thinking again, that I don't like Christians (I experiance the same thing here @ church :( ) But It's not christians that I don't like I suppose. Sorry Vi, it make sme sad that ppl treat u like that - obviously it's not u personally, but everyone in general. Thats what makes me passionate about God, and his church, and a new thing! I was getting really pissed off @ "church culture" when I discovered that that is not a reflection of God at ALL!!! Again, I encourage u to keep on seeking God, and his face, and do that while hanging out with the Japanese teachers!!! Otherwise, how will they eva get to meet Jesus? I have to encourage you with my recent experiance here, in that it's been this past week where I've been sick, and down that Ive been really encouraged. It's the people here who maybe fit less, or have less "intelegence" that have been the ones who just come up and ask if they can pray with me. I've really been shown God's love amongst his poeple. yay. By the way, should we ask God to call down fire on that bunch of people (cept Heather and Val?) he he. Just kidding (sort of....)
Glad ur seeing tho what the rest of the world sees and feels when they encounter the majority of the people who are supposed to be Christ's ambassadors. Break the mold :) I know you will.
Miss you so much. :)
yeah the cool thing about peope is that we don't have much expectations of them so when they do something good its great, and when people who call themsevles followers of Jesus don't meet our basic expectations we get pretty disapointed and it sucks bad, but at least not all christians are that way :)
Good point, John.
It's not like the people at church were really horrible. They were just normal. Sad, but that's the kind of 'warmth' you feel at most public gatherings, including most churches!, where everyone else knows each other and you don't really know anyone. But it doesn't make it any easier to deal with!
*hugs* I totally understand that feeling, its really hard when you go to a church that doesnt have that family feeling like you have at your home church. God will bless you and the church through your worshipping there I have faith in that! *hugs* cheer up and rememeber we'd love to chat with you after church!!!
Hi Heather, David has introduced me to your web site. I will have a read over the weekend.
Ed
it is sad when people dont want to relate to each other after a service. i just think that is the time when people can most relate to each other with the love of God. but i s'pose its just their difference in culture.
but i'm glad you had a good evening.
p.s thanks for the letter, it was most wonderful.
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